Heavy Heart

I am grieving the loss of my friend, Joseph Gaudioso, who died yesterday here in Los Angeles. He was a good man with a generous heart. May light perpetual shine upon his soul.


My heart goes out to his partner of 34 years, Charles Elliott, who is wrapped in my prayers tonight.

On Death

You would know the secret of death.
But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?
The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day cannot unveil the mystery of light.
If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life.
For life and death are one, even as the river and the sea are one.

In the depth of your hopes and desires lies your silent knowledge of the beyond;
And like seeds dreaming beneath the snow your heart dreams of spring.
Trust the dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.
Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd when he stands before the king whose hand is to be laid upon him in honour.
Is the shepherd not joyful beneath his trembling, that he shall wear the mark of the king?
Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling?

For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun?
And what is it to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?

Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing.
And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.
And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance.

Khalil Gibran



5 thoughts on “Heavy Heart”

  1. Dear Les, I was a client of Joseph’s in the 80’s and we became friends. We attended functions together when I needed a guy and he needed a gal. We have kept in touch over the years and watched each others children grow into adults. His son Marc married a good friends daughter and that is how I heard the tragic news. I don’t have the heart to call Charles and will send a card. I googled and googled until I stumbled upon your blog. Thank you for sharing. My heart is heavy, too. What a lovely man with a great sense of humor and kind heart. I will always treasure my time with him. Joesph helped guide me through a divorce and make me a better person. Again, I am sorry for your loss and especially Charles and Marc and grandchildren and anyone who had the pleasure to know that sweet man. Joani Bartoli-Porto,

    1. Dear Joani,

      Ah, I am sorry for your loss, as well. Yes, Joseph was a lovely person and could make you laugh just when you needed it the most. Charles will appreciate a call or card. He is holding up, but clearly misses his Joseph terribly. I saw Charles twice last week, once at the Homeless Breakfast where we both volunteer, and a second time at the requiem of a homeless man who we had all come to love. Healing thoughts to you, my dear. This is a tough one all round.

  2. Wow, over two years later I hear the Joseph passed on. So sorry. I knew him well in law school and we kept in touch for several years after. He was a great guy, funny, smart etc. Had he been ill? and what did her die from. Regardless way to young. RIP Joseph. So sad

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